12 hours
In the middle of the gazillion papers that I was completing to finish early this morning (around 1am), my eyes were undoubtedly giving out. My back hurt and I felt a bit neauseated. Alas, I'm sick again. So I opted to sleep right before it hit 2am thinking I can get an early start today.
Ha. I thought wrong. It's 2:36 pm here now and I got up just 10 minutes ago. Which, according to my otherwise useless mathematical brain, was a good 12 hours of sleep.
Aaaah. Bliss. Bliss. Bliss.
So then, I checked my computer (I leave it open) and about 22 people buzzed me, my phone had about 14 missed calls (from 8 people) and 24 messages from 18 different people. God the world loves me :-D
Thing is, for someone like me who averages 5 hours of sleep each day, this sort of thing reminds me that the best things in life, are certainly free. Makes me feel i'm still part of the "normal world" in referrence to a text I got today from a friend who I know just misses the normalcy of my life and of our friendship, she texted: "You became a snob ever since you started in AIESEC".
My reply? I didn't. I don't want to justify comments like that because I don't think not replying to her 10 forwarded messages a day or to her random 3 am "are you still up" messages makes me a snob. Simply because I don't have any quotes to forward her anyway and well, I don't see the point. Friendship has never been about how often you talk or text or even see each other. It's not even in the spontaneous messages every now and then. Friendship is having to develop that connection with someone whom despite the miles and physical absence knows nothing, and no one, has changed.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not mad at my friend. Not even pissed and even if her message kind of hurt me (who wants to be called a snob?!), I charge it to experience and took some time to contemplate if all I'm doing for AIESEC is worth how my friend (or friends) now sees me.. And well, it wasn't much of a comtemplation, I knew after 10 seconds that yea, it all is.
I know I'm contradicting myself with my earlier statement but, to those reading this and feels the same way towards me, here's what I've to say: I'm sorry you feel that way but I just do what I can when I can. Your friendship means the world to me just as much as my passion for my org does to me. I'm not asking you to understand AIESEC nor my love for it, I'm asking you to understand me, Ces. The same Ces who was there for all of you whenever and wherever you need me to be. I take pride in the kind of friend I have been to all of you and I know you know just how much I loved you guys. Your place in my heart can and will never be replaced nor compromised at any point, and that I assure you.
My heart hasn't changed at all, it just grew bigger. It grew big enough to accommodate the other amazing people that AIESEC has given me the chance to know and befriend.
There. I think I've said more than enough. And since I slept so long, I've to cram all the stuff I've to do and finish by tomorrow. Since my airconditioning has given out on me, I'm going out to finish everything elsewhere.
Hooray for Wi-Fi!
Ha. I thought wrong. It's 2:36 pm here now and I got up just 10 minutes ago. Which, according to my otherwise useless mathematical brain, was a good 12 hours of sleep.
Aaaah. Bliss. Bliss. Bliss.
So then, I checked my computer (I leave it open) and about 22 people buzzed me, my phone had about 14 missed calls (from 8 people) and 24 messages from 18 different people. God the world loves me :-D
Thing is, for someone like me who averages 5 hours of sleep each day, this sort of thing reminds me that the best things in life, are certainly free. Makes me feel i'm still part of the "normal world" in referrence to a text I got today from a friend who I know just misses the normalcy of my life and of our friendship, she texted: "You became a snob ever since you started in AIESEC".
My reply? I didn't. I don't want to justify comments like that because I don't think not replying to her 10 forwarded messages a day or to her random 3 am "are you still up" messages makes me a snob. Simply because I don't have any quotes to forward her anyway and well, I don't see the point. Friendship has never been about how often you talk or text or even see each other. It's not even in the spontaneous messages every now and then. Friendship is having to develop that connection with someone whom despite the miles and physical absence knows nothing, and no one, has changed.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not mad at my friend. Not even pissed and even if her message kind of hurt me (who wants to be called a snob?!), I charge it to experience and took some time to contemplate if all I'm doing for AIESEC is worth how my friend (or friends) now sees me.. And well, it wasn't much of a comtemplation, I knew after 10 seconds that yea, it all is.
I know I'm contradicting myself with my earlier statement but, to those reading this and feels the same way towards me, here's what I've to say: I'm sorry you feel that way but I just do what I can when I can. Your friendship means the world to me just as much as my passion for my org does to me. I'm not asking you to understand AIESEC nor my love for it, I'm asking you to understand me, Ces. The same Ces who was there for all of you whenever and wherever you need me to be. I take pride in the kind of friend I have been to all of you and I know you know just how much I loved you guys. Your place in my heart can and will never be replaced nor compromised at any point, and that I assure you.
My heart hasn't changed at all, it just grew bigger. It grew big enough to accommodate the other amazing people that AIESEC has given me the chance to know and befriend.
There. I think I've said more than enough. And since I slept so long, I've to cram all the stuff I've to do and finish by tomorrow. Since my airconditioning has given out on me, I'm going out to finish everything elsewhere.
Hooray for Wi-Fi!
7 Comments:
Every @cer has a phase where your "other" friends feel that you are neglecting them..and then in phase 2 when you become a hard core @cer..you suddenly realize that all the good friends that you have are @cers!!...but the true "non-aiesec" friends are the ones which stick by you thru the wild globe trotting @ career !!
and hey..good to find a fellow sushi lover..i just wish it was cheap enough to eat everyday for breakfast,lunch and dinner !!!..if it is cheap in manila, i might want to set up a deal with some1 to fed-ex iht straight to bangalore...and in return, i can send some good Butter chicken, Idli's and Dosa's.. Interested??? :)
i have very protective friends who gets jealous easily and i know they're that way only because they miss me. you gotta give them credit for that. and yea, sushi is relatively cheap here, granted the exchange rate.
butter chicken sounds good :-D
what papers??????????? may paper na agad? or sa aiesec yun??? anong meron sa ITM and sa consumer behavior? kwento.... sabihin mo sa teacher natin papasok ako ha. di mo sinagot email ko. SNOB. wahahahahahahha.. miss ko na kayo :(
not papers for school exactly. for aiesec although the course work sheets were given out already.
JUNE 19 is the submission for our course works so yea, you better come home asap if you wanna live. hehe.
consumer behavior sucks. our teacher's unbelievable. a total ass. you'll see when you get back here.
the ITM class is fine. teacher's really good, bit boring pero really good and he knows his shit and that's always a great thing.
i repeat.
WHAT EMAIL?! where have you been emailing me? i open ALL of my accounts. WALA KAYA. i check my messages religiously. WALA. NONE. NADA. ZIP.
email me here para sure since this one is always open: ces.rondario@gmail.com
xoxo,
ces
waaaah. shet pano kaya yun. 5 courseworks in 15 days. dapat magawa ko na in 3 days ang isa. :( i'll be home soon. 13 more days :(
you have notes ba?
wah! diba you emailed a very long one last week? tapos nagreply ako dun sa email mo na yun. yung abt PBOX thingy natin...
i asked if cathy's back. if jp already left, hows skul? if tuloy pa mommy and pap sa china.. etc. hehehe then abt the orientation, na june ? what tym yun...waaaaaah.. sa gmail nga!
ooooh. that. sorry. i'm swamped with so much work.
okay, recap. cathy's back, jp's in venice riding gondolas and gretch plus daddy rap are heading to china. i only have 5 people to go to the dev con with me this friday: mike, cathy, kelvin, show & valerie (a newbie). si gene tentatively sasama. ej's going to cebu for her cousin's wedding.
i'm.. read your mail.
i'm missing my bebe max. come home asap. your mommy needs you.
wah tuloy sila mommy. :( so that means few days ko na lang din pala sila makikita. :( hows the devcon. ill be home soon. 4 more days...6 pala. hehe...
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