Magical Hands
There are only 2 sure things in this world and life,
1. Death
2. Change
The latter for me, is a lot scarier. The former, if viewed objectively, isn't really an end of an existence but a beginning at yet another phase in our being. Lately I have been battling with changes and none of them has been very good.
I have always been spontaneous but somewhere along my often times lacks persona, thrives a person who yearns for some sense of balance and stableness in my affairs. As of now I am as confused as hell. I have no idea what the next months hold for me. The only thing I am sure of right now are my birthday and christnas and even that at times not pleasant itself. I have been on a soliloquy for weeks now trying to pry out of my system what is I truly want to do. I have plans ready to be carried out but a part of me is pulling me further back to my little hole of comtemplation.
Having recognized that I am completely clueless right now on what the future holds, I have clipped off some aspects of my life that I feel are not serving any good being kept going so as I close a chapter of my life, I hope tomorrow proves to be good enough to make me want to anticipate what's out there more for me.
1. Death
2. Change
The latter for me, is a lot scarier. The former, if viewed objectively, isn't really an end of an existence but a beginning at yet another phase in our being. Lately I have been battling with changes and none of them has been very good.
I have always been spontaneous but somewhere along my often times lacks persona, thrives a person who yearns for some sense of balance and stableness in my affairs. As of now I am as confused as hell. I have no idea what the next months hold for me. The only thing I am sure of right now are my birthday and christnas and even that at times not pleasant itself. I have been on a soliloquy for weeks now trying to pry out of my system what is I truly want to do. I have plans ready to be carried out but a part of me is pulling me further back to my little hole of comtemplation.
Having recognized that I am completely clueless right now on what the future holds, I have clipped off some aspects of my life that I feel are not serving any good being kept going so as I close a chapter of my life, I hope tomorrow proves to be good enough to make me want to anticipate what's out there more for me.
4 Comments:
Welcome to the club. I've been a card-carrying member for a few years now.
At least you can take solice in the fact that there are millions of others just like you who have no clue as to what the future holds.
My only advice is to realize that this uncertainty will probably open you up to more opportunities than you could possibly imagine.
I'm all for tomorrow's surprises.. I guess I just feel a bit out of the loop with my own life and that is never good.
But yea, I welcome tomorrow's jewels of surprises wide eyed with arms wide open.
You forgot one more thing: Taxes ;-)
yep. taxes.
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