In The Dumps

I don't know why I feel this way. I don't know why i'm in the dumps. I don't know.. I know i'm supposed to be happy. I know i'm supposed to be feeling thrilled as the next week is relatively (and supposedly) a very special one for me but I don't feel.. special or anything resembling a good feeling. I don't know how all this came about. I had a good day, went shopping, heard mass and went home pretty early. But I don't know.. Something in the air doesn't feel so right. I don't know what's happening with me. This can very well be just cold feet (don't get any wild ideas).

I hope this wanes, I wanna stop feeling this way. This is so not healthy. I'm happy.. I truly am but somehow things are not playing well into my ears. I don't know where this is from, it magically popped out and it sucks.

Rar.